I hope this letter finds you well, despite all the madness in you. I know I probably make for a certain percentage of that but you and I both know mad poles attract. So we both are here, each a little mad, and we have to coexist, at least for one lifetime. Thus my reason for writing to you. I have but one request, Please don’t let me be depressed.
Tell me there’s hope for my life. Even though it doesn’t seem so right now. Even though from where I stand all I see is dark darkness. There has to be hope. Surely you didn’t allow me here only to suffer. Remind me that tomorrow can be better than today. Especially when I feel like my future is hopeless. Like nothing I do is ever going to work. Remind me there is hope, that situations are temporary and today’s woes may tickle me tomorrow.
Give me a friend. Someone to talk to about my sorrows and my joys. Someone to remind me to care when I have forgotten how to. Someone to be there for and count on. Don’t let me drown in my thoughts. These thoughts that sink my spirit lower than the ocean. Give me someone to talk to when I have something to say and when all i need is to while time away. Don’t let me be alone, not when you have so many people within you. Don’t let me be lonely, for loneliness among people is the worst kind of lonely.
When I want to sit in the dark and stuff food into the emptiness I feel inside, remind me that there is a lot of life outside that I need to live. Tell that I can step out and enjoy all the beauty there is in you. Tell me its never that serious. That I am allowed to enjoy life despite all that happens. When I am pushed to the wall and am tempted hold back, tell me its OK to react. That I can have my angry moment. Remind me to allow myself to feel, one emotion at a time so they don’t all come at once and crush me.
When I want to give up on life remind me there is a better end to my story than a noose around my neck. When I feel like i merge with the darkness tell me that I have light in me. that I need to allow it to shine. Remind me that there is a good tomorrow that I should fight for today. Remind me to be strong. Remind me that I am bigger than your pressures. Remind me not to let life get to me.
Above all give me the courage to speak up. Tell me that its OK to seek for help. That it does not make me any less human. Tell me that it does not make me weak but rather strong to admit that I need help. Whatever you do with me world, please, don’t let me be depressed.